Wednesday, April 2, 2014

Choosing someone over me.

Posted by yen at 5:17 PM

I think i'm not being fair to him this days. I know that i love him. He's the one i wish to be with. He's the perfect guy who always understand me. But I couldn't tell him directly what i want. Every time he didn't get what i want him to do. I easily get mad. I also know that he has his own will, own decision to make.

But every time he wants something and i complained not to go. I always feel that i'm the evil girl for him who always forbid him. He wants to be with other people but every time he chooses to be with them I felt like he always choose other people to be with, rather than me. So what will i do? I will just say "ok go,if that's what you want". And because he want to go he didn't really understand what i really mean. In that case i couldn't tell him "i dont want you to go"," I dont want you to be with them". I couldn't tell that to him, because i know that he really wants it. That's why im being sad, It feels like there's a heavy baggage within me. I couldn't tell to him everything especially when i know that he will think that's unfair.

oh well i just write it down so that it will lessen the feeling i feel inside.


I miss the times when i can tell him anything,everything i want and feels. But this days i couldn't, because he is the one who always make me feel sad. how will i tell it to him directly? . I also know that he loves me but why am i feeling this way. Why I can't be open to him just like before ?. Most of the times even we were together we didn't really talk. As in the real talk. Because of me again??? It really makes me feel sad.




 

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Wednesday, April 2, 2014

Choosing someone over me.

Posted by yen at 5:17 PM
I think i'm not being fair to him this days. I know that i love him. He's the one i wish to be with. He's the perfect guy who always understand me. But I couldn't tell him directly what i want. Every time he didn't get what i want him to do. I easily get mad. I also know that he has his own will, own decision to make.

But every time he wants something and i complained not to go. I always feel that i'm the evil girl for him who always forbid him. He wants to be with other people but every time he chooses to be with them I felt like he always choose other people to be with, rather than me. So what will i do? I will just say "ok go,if that's what you want". And because he want to go he didn't really understand what i really mean. In that case i couldn't tell him "i dont want you to go"," I dont want you to be with them". I couldn't tell that to him, because i know that he really wants it. That's why im being sad, It feels like there's a heavy baggage within me. I couldn't tell to him everything especially when i know that he will think that's unfair.

oh well i just write it down so that it will lessen the feeling i feel inside.

I miss the times when i can tell him anything,everything i want and feels. But this days i couldn't, because he is the one who always make me feel sad. how will i tell it to him directly? . I also know that he loves me but why am i feeling this way. Why I can't be open to him just like before ?. Most of the times even we were together we didn't really talk. As in the real talk. Because of me again??? It really makes me feel sad.




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