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- i'm jerrilyn but you can call me "yen" im 19 yrs old. A computer science student. Just follow my blogs and other accounts if you want.
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Friday, July 29, 2011
Thursday, July 21, 2011
DEPRESSED
Napakabigat ng nararamdaman ko ngayon matapos makita ang resulta ng THESIS DEFENSE. Ang totoo naiinget ako sa kanila dahil nakapasa sila. Napakaraming bagay ang tumatakbo sa isipan ko ngayon. Sobrang nanghihinayang ako sa pagkakataon, sa oras at panahon. Kung bakit ba kasi hindi ako naging motivated gumawa nung may oras pa. Aaminin ko nawalan ako ng ganang gumawa dahil..
1.Walang cooperation sa group namin.
2.Nakikita kong hindi sila gumagawa .. (naiinis ako pero ang mali ko dahil ako ang sumunod sa kanila) One of my friend told me, once ive said to him "ang pag-aaral nakakasira ng barkada" he told me "hindi dapat. Kasi kung may problema ang kabarkada dapat tulungan" when i've heard that may point siya. Kasi madami bagay ang nagyayari masama man o mabuti nasa tao parin yun kung panu niya ihahandle.
Kung sana ginawa namin to as a group, with positive outlook at sinamahan ng prayer sigurado HAPPY din dapat kame ngaun. Sabi nga ng mga taong nakakaalam na ng situation ko ngayon. PRAYER + HARDWORK =SUCCESS.
Alam ko naman hindi na maibabalik ang nasayang na panahon. Pero pwede pa naman siguro mabago ang lahat kaya hindi ko na din siguro kailangan kaawaan ang sarili ko dapat gumawa nalang ako ng paraan para maka graduate on time.
Sobrang bigat talaga,, Ang hirap mag congratulate ng mga tao kapag malungkot ka, Masaya naman ako para sa kanila coz they deserve that but still ewan ko nga ba ,,
Gustong gusto kung umiyak pero hindi na lumalabas e, nakatago lang.
Dapat maging positive ako ngayon ee,, kaso parang nawawalan na ko ng pag asa to surpass all this things. Things didn't happen the way i want to be. Super crooked lines na nga ung path ko ee,, hayz :'(
Thursday, July 14, 2011
Judgement DAY..
10:36pm
7/14/2011
This must be our THESIS DEFENSE day,, but unfortunately as expected we didn't make it.
WHY?? because the truth is we didn't know how to finished the code for this system.
Actually this day i still bring my formal attire hoping that we could still present and wishing for a chance
but when we arrived in school. We got some news that there is one group who didn't make it, so we lose hope and we didn't try to present anything. The FACT that we know that if we continue presenting we will just put our own selves in shame.
I felt so much regret deep inside me,, maybe those people would see me smiling, think i didn't care much about this matter. But the truth is cried so much a week before because i lose hope. I have my own plans but now this THESIS thing is really a LIFE CHANGING MATTER. My goal of graduating on time were all ruined.. despite of all this things that happens today i was touched to those people who sympathies to us (it was like we lose someone) especially our friends who gives us so much advise. I hope we could still get another chance NEXT SEM so that we could still join then in graduation.
This was the result of the things we did before. We didn't give much priority to do this and now were suffering for the consequences.
I experienced MIXED EMOTIONS this day. Sadness,Regret,Presentiment,envy almost all the feelings was bad but the fact that there are people who talk to me this night I am so much touched. Now, im just convincing my self that everything happens for a reason and i know that GOD would help us on our journey. We must have more faith in him and Work hard for our dreams :)
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
Problems do come and go?
this night i been regretted the things i've done past few months and until this very last day. Those action and behavior about a certain things leads me to what i am experiencing right now. If i just did the best that i can, maybe it wouldn't turn out things this badly. Every action has their own consequences and i must face it. I felt ashamed to myself. Deep inside me i am asking why??
why do i act like this?
why did i neglect those very important things?
why do i let things become complicated?
why do i messed up??
Why do i let myself be like them?
back from the very beginning i know it would turn out this bad,, but still i didn't do my best to fix things up. now i am suffering for all the things ive done back then.
Then there's a lot more problems coming along at the same time. How could i handle those things when i know that solution for all of this problems are the things i neglected. :'(
why do i act like this?
why did i neglect those very important things?
why do i let things become complicated?
why do i messed up??
Why do i let myself be like them?
back from the very beginning i know it would turn out this bad,, but still i didn't do my best to fix things up. now i am suffering for all the things ive done back then.
Then there's a lot more problems coming along at the same time. How could i handle those things when i know that solution for all of this problems are the things i neglected. :'(
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