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March 22, 2011
When i was on my way home,,
there's so much things thats runs in my mind..
What if? i was hit by a vehicle now?
What if? i was killed by a holdapper?
(if that happens maybe its better because i wouldn't have to explain my failure to my mom)
While i was here in our house.. i was thinkin' what if? i drink a lot of medicine,,?
hmmm i what to do something that i would be dead already,,
hush! this was my very first time,, i dont know what to do,,
that why its better if something bad will happen to me,,

This was the saddest part of my college life.
Why? Because it was my very first time to experience super FAILURE!
AUTOMATA i guess... damn it!
I passed design and analysis of algorithm with Prof.Ria Sagum
and i also passed the Db ADmin with the terror proffessor Joel Soccorro
but why now???  when i was on my 3rd yr with so much things that need to be accomplished,,
actually my really concern was the transcript of record and how could i explain it to my mom,,,

I know no one has to be blame on what had happened except myself.
but i couldn't believe on certain people around me,,

I think past 3 years ago there was a similar situation that happened like this.
When i took an entrance exam. I pray so hard,, went to churches every now and then.
Try so hard before the exam.. then after the exam when my mom asked me
"How was the test?" i answered hmmm "ayos naman madali lang"
hmmm unfortunately the result wasn't good

Me and my friend went to a church 2 days before the removal exam,,
I remembered when my friend asked me the same question after the removal exam
i also answered the exactly the same answer and also get the same result.
How come when i eagerly want it and pray for it,,, it always failed,,,

Actuallly when i was in school earlier ,,, i felt nothing ,,
but now when i was writing this,, tears are rolling down my face,,,